haiss.. i juz hare making decision yoo noe .. i am realli sick and tired of all this !!! i realli don noe wat to do le .. but however i still have to make a decision .. i noe no matter wat decision i make it will hurt either one of us de.. but i realli don have much choice le !!! winnie have told me tt.. u should give yrself yr own happiness.. be happi and not to be sad ! i wan to but this matter have been wif me long ago le ! u guys have told mie tt if u have no feelin for him le juz break dun drag the matter on le .. it will not do any gd for us de ! but wat can i do now ??? i don even understand and noe wat am i thinkng and wat i actually wan right now !!! .. everyone have yr own problem.. i dun wan because of mie u guys are also problem ! life is juz lk tt .. no matter how others say the own decision is still in yr hand ! i wanna be happi too i ask u , who wanna be sad in this world ? haissss.... sianx ! wat will i do ne ? i realli dun noe .. how much i wish i were in a dream , no troblem,no problem wat u nid to do is juz to dream ! wat have gone wrong wif mie le ? feel so restless right now .. plsss dun force mie to do something i dun lk .. kk plssss ! this is juz a want not a nid !!!!! understand ! u ask one time or two time or even three time is already enough for mie le enough !!!!!!! i will get veri veri fan de ! i feel so guilty do u noe tt towards yoo , towards andrew and my mom ! i hate myself so so much tt i wanna end my life le ! this should not be the way ba .. no matter how i still nid to continue my life de ! sometimes i do ask myelf .. are we fated ? our relationship is it by luck or wat ? this is not the kind of true love i wan ! wat i nid is true love ,understanding and care ! i noe u have given mie yr care and true love le .. but still this is not wat i wan ! i also noe u tried yr best to understand mie well le .. this is not realli yr fault rite u may not nid to say sorri to mie ! i rather it is another way round .. it is yoo who hurts mie but noti hurts yoo kk ! haisss .. juz to tired to think about this le ! i realli feel so guilty towards my mom ! she trust me so much but yet i lie to her .. this shoulden be the way ba ! argh....
hmm lets change a topic ba !!! haha .. hmm ytd go for the wsidol bbq lo.. pei zihui ma and limin haha !!! veri pai seh and extra sia haiss.. but hmm quite fun la but laso abit sianx ! kekex wat toking mie ??? lolss ... saw three "man" swimming in the pool : zayar,issac and khariul ... lolss !!! they veri lame neh then we veri pai seh ma so we all go face outside then u noe wat khariul say .. hey they looking at the scenery sia ! then go tell zihui tt .. u nv see a guy half naked b4 meh so scare for wat !!! haha make zihui keep on laughing there .. lolsssss .. hahahaha laugh lk mad sia ! hmm b4 tt nehx go back to the sch and take history de text bk ..kekex pai seh lo but u all ..the clothes all wet wet lolsss.. after go plaza hmm but present for someone !!! cause tt person de birthday comingl iao so go there buy lo !! .. actually hor ytd quite fun la ..hehe .. but hten juz feel veri pai seh and abit extra nia ! hehe...
kk shall stop all my crappy here le .. hmm winnie haha lets go for a movie on friday kk wahahaha lame -.- bleahx : Pp lalalalala my yong yuan de blog !!! lolss
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